Discovery Of More Pieces To The Pain And Balance Puzzle

I have made so many discoveries about myself in the past 36 hrs. I’ve actually discovered a huge piece as to why I am in this wheelchair, and have been gifted with a few of the puzzle pieces which are leading to me to discover what I can do about it.

I am so intensely moved, I find it difficult to write about this. However, writing, if only for myself, has always provided clarity for me.

I have been extremely busy for the past two months designing the next step of The Optimystic Ride and the various components. I had it all planned out in my head, the vision was clear, and suddenly, an unexpected twist in the road appeared. I’m still not sure how it is going to turn out, but for the moment, being the Optimystic I am, I decided to twist with the road to discover the adventure that is going to appear around the bend. For now, I’m going to unveil my new website within days. Please stay tuned. You’ll be getting an email on it soon.

Then, I received a phone call from someone very dear with whom I had not connected for a few months. I was relaying the antics and adventures of my life in its latest chapters with the local Court, the IRS, the State Supreme Court of WI, and the Dept. of Education. He asked me how I could maintain this level of ‘fighting.’

I laughed and explain that I really have not had any major fighting. I just follow through, place a phone call, write a 2 page letter and do what any honest citizen with a sense of morals would do. He told me I was amazing. I begged to differ. I have come to understand part of my role here on Earth as one of adding some of the needed feminine energies to some very rigid, stiff, traditionally male institutions.

So, what did I discover? In talking with a new friend in India, I was explaining to her that someone I know represents, for me, the epitome of balanced masculine and feminine energies. She asked me a few questions, which pushed me to talk about my own, at times rather unfocused, creativity and to relate it to the part of me that is blocked, the feminine part of my own self expression.

I have learned to honor the External Feminine role of myself that somehow, I have come to Earth to play out.

However, it is the Inner Feminine where I definitely still need a significant dose of balance. It has become stuck, or blocked, within my body and it is manifesting as the pain I am experiencing. This discovery, in the safe arms of a new Soul Sister from India, brought waves of tears to my eyes and my Heart. It seems so clear. Why couldn’t I have figured this out before? What is so hard about it? I’m not sure. However, to me, this discovery is a significant portion of the puzzle.

The next day, I went to a yoga class with my teacher, Marty Tribble, who left town a year ago to do some teacher training and never returned until now. Her class was amazing, as usual. And, par for the course for me, I knew, before I arrived, she would serve as an amplifier for my discoveries.

Of course, the class was very focused on the inner, feminine, yoga poses. She repeatedly spoke of being still, of getting into that space within oneself, and of receiving. My body felt more like putty than usual and was actually fairly cooperative and calm. Just two days earlier, I had watched a few YouTubes of Drunvalo Melchizadek talking about living from our Heart space and how vital it is right now. I was able to totally get to that space during the class.

The next, new, added objective in my life is to take some time daily to get quiet, still and focus on my own Heart energy, which relieves the pain. Then again, I could always listen to my powerfully Heart opening music too!! It is grounding, opening, flowing and has strong balancing energies, perfect except I still need the stillness. I’ll be working on both!

BLESSINGS,


Gina